Dear God,

Are you still there? Do you remember me?
The little girl that loved your stories
Awed by your mystery
A humble servant to your word.
That tiny soul with so little history.
Are you still there?
I feel as though im left with nothing.
you’ve taken all that’s key
This constant fire burning inside of me.
Do you even remember me?
I’m your daughter lord
How can you do this to me?
Do you still remember me?
I feel like ive been thrown aside
Left alone to be eaten by flies.
Are you still there? Do you remember me?
Im filled with hatred towards all things holy
Is this what it feel like to have forgotten your glory?
What have I done lord to displease you so?
Is it my hairdo? My glasses? My clothes?
TELL ME LORD I NEED TO KNOW!

I know im weak but help me thru
Lead me back to that broken pew
Help to bend my knees and raise my eyes, let out my hands and a heavenly sigh…

I know im blind to your master plan. Like an artist with an empty paint can. Paint me lord in your picture so I may be an image of you. Let me be your instrument so I may one day be your muse. I know you have a plan for me much greater than I understand but my heart weakens and my body grows impatient to see. So now I pray for strength and patience to wait for that moment for my eyes to be opened, my ears to hear and my senses to feel all that you are and all that you have in store for me. So please lord, help ME to see…

Are you still there? Do you remember me?